Monday, June 2, 2008

The Journey to the Real Me!

This is the first excerpt from my new blog www.losingthethoughtofme.blogspot.com where I will be posting regularly, please feel free to read it and come with me on a journey.

I will still be posting here as well!


Lately I have been motivated. Motivation is something that's been very absent from my life the last while. I was wondering if I was destined to live my life apathetic and feeling lifeless. I'm not really sure what clicked/changed in the last little bit, maybe a nudge from God, maybe a frustration with myself regardless here I am feeling alive and motivated; what a blessing!

I have a running track that I work out to. It's basically just upbeat music specifically designed for runners with the occasional lyric interruption. One of the lyrics says,

Are you alive, yes I am
Are you alive, I am indeed

Every time I hear that I get a feeling like there's is so much more to being "alive"

And so with that I have decided if I want more to life I have to be the igniter. That is what this blog is all about. It's about losing who/what I thought I should be and finding who/what I really am.

I have said that a lot in my life but I've always been too lazy to go ahead and do it. But in the midst of finding myself I have decided to stop procrastinating, that journey is going well so far, a lot of thanks to my boyfriend Carlos, who lacks some patience!

So this blog is going to record my journey to a healthy balanced lifestyle. Currently I have no balance, I honestly go from one extreme to the next which makes me feel like I'm drowning in a world of chaos. So my first step to being healthy and balanced is eating healthy and exercising. I'm doing it for a lot of reasons, I need to lose weight (30lbs), I need to be healthy to live the rest of my life healthily, I want to treat my body with some respect.

A healthy lifestyle is not just eating and exercising though. It's about emotions, mind, and spirit to. So as I journey I'm going to examine my emotions, bring my mind under control, and search for God once again.

One big thing I've had to overcome is the thought of NOW. I want to see results NOW, I don't want to wait for change. I'm coming to realize that this is a lifelong change and I'm just going to have to have A LOT of patience. And I need some accountability which is the biggest reason for my blog. Even if no one reads it I know it's here and I'm going to post regularly.

So off I go to get a new bed then to the gym whether I like the thought of it or not!!

Ciao!